Stroke Recovery Association of BC


‘Aphasia’ Producer Discusses Recovery Process


Carl McIntyre made the movie “Aphasia” in 2010, five years after a stroke damaged 80 percent of his brain’s left hemisphere, thus severely impairing his processes of communication. Aphasia is a communicative disorder that inhibits language but not intellect, resulting in the loss of the ability to speak and listen. Despite facing this situation and receiving news that he may never speak again, McIntyre continued to make improvements.

Carl starred as himself in a short film, recounting his story to adapt to the incredible changes in his life, now, he tours around the world, presenting the movie and motivating people with his story.

Before his stroke, McIntyre worked as a teacher, actor and salesman. In the movie, McIntyre reenacts a year and a half of therapy and learning following the stroke, indicating how losing the ability to communicate changed both his and his family’s life.

“Having a stroke sucks,” McIntyre says, “Aphasia really sucks. Before I had a stroke, life was good, job is voice – actor, teacher and really good sales. But after stroke, everything’s different. I can’t speak, and I can’t read or write. Being trapped in one’s head is a prison where there are disappointments every day. I remember saying, ‘Live or die, I don’t care. I’m over life,’ – bad place, really dark, dark place. But Carl is Carl and most times I’m happy.”

McIntyre’s recovery was a multi-step process. The first step was to mourn and realize he was no longer the same as the ‘Old Carl’. He then wrote the word ‘acceptance’ on a large paper pad — the second step towards recovery. “I’m still here,” he said after writing the word. “I’m still relevant and no fear — fearless. … There is hope, hope is everything. No love, no life. … I love to live again, and I love hope. Another step in the process is hope, and the final step is progress. No matter if it’s big or small, progress every day matters. My brain is always on – and faster every year because I’m working every day. … I’m trying.”

The best advice he can pass onto future speech therapists and families is patience. “Lot of patience because today is a good day, tomorrow not too much,” McIntyre said. “But patience can never quit. … I’m lucky because friends help life back … and understand I never be the same. My brain is fine. I can’t speak, but I’m no dummy. One person understands me, I’m over the moon. I know I never be the same, and every day is hard. But every day is good too. Possibilities, endless possibilities. Aphasia still sucks, but I win every day and you can too!”

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